It's my life...the ups and the downs...the thrills and the frustrations. It's also a work in progress of who I am becoming. Share with me, the experiences you have had similar to mine...share your opinions even if they are not the same as mine.
Thursday, August 1, 2013
One of THOSE Kind of Days
Ever have one of those kind of days where you just want to crawl in a hole and just stay there till life becomes nice again? Or one of those kind of days where nothing you do is right by anyone? How about one of those kind of days where you feel like you aren't worth much? In other words, you are having a pity party for yourself and no one else is invited because you'll wish they stepped on a Lego...in the middle of the night. Yep...I'm there, today.
I really don't know what triggered this mood but it's here. I don't even want to walk today and this is the time I should be walking. I have a great family, friends, and life - am blessed with that. I just don't want to be part of society today. I don't feel like I inspire anyone lately. I used to feel that way. I have to get that back because it's part of who I am. I am the cheerleader, the "pick up your spirit" person, the one to say "you can do it" and I have not been any of those things to anyone in awhile now. I try to be, I think I am and then realize, probably not.
Society and me, today, not friends. I'll try again tomorrow.
Sunday, July 21, 2013
And so it begins...again
Quote for today:
The difference between who you ARE and who you WANT TO BE is the work you put in.
The difference between who you ARE and who you WANT TO BE is the work you put in.
Monday, June 24, 2013
This...That...and What's on my Mind
It's been over a year since I have blogged here and it's not that I have forgotten, just tons of things going on and this seemed to take a back burner. I have been trying (with just a tad bit of success) to make a real go of my food blog, Blogghetti, and also keeping up with my classes. At my age, that seems to be harder than I thought it would. Age does not always bring wisdom, sometimes you lose it. Maybe, I can replace some of what I lost with new wisdom. Haha!
Anyway, let's start with the classes. I am in the process of changing my major from Business Admin to Public Service. Why? Because (again, at my age), I want to be able to enjoy what I am learning and doing as a career. Not just have a degree because it's what's expected and presumed to be on your resume. Public Service is a much better fit for me. I love helping people and when I worked at the technical college, that's what I did and enjoyed every minute of helping others. Sad that I quit that job after almost 10 years because I was not moving forward no matter how hard I tried and management seemed to want me to step back even though I was doing great there. Going back to college was a major factor of that decision to quit and only every now and then I regret quitting but only because of my addiction for Hobby Lobby, which requires money!
The food blog is an adventure, a hobby, and hopefully I can make it popular - more than what it is, which is not so much. I am not giving up though. I am learning more every day about blogging, photography, and promoting blogs. It's not as easy as some make it seem. New recipes are fun to try and even if they turn out not great, it's a learning experience. Bless my family's hearts and stomachs for being guinea pigs! If you are so inclined (just a bit of begging here), please check the blog out and follow it as well as the Facebook page for it. I'd appreciate it tons!
Quitting my job put quite a few things into perspective for me along the lines of friends and coworkers. You quit a job and those that you thought were your friends (coworkers) are never to be heard from again, not all but some. I've always tried to be the best friend I could be to all those I considered friends because that's how I would like to be treated. This worked well for me for many years, or did it really? Maybe treating others how you want to be treated is just a crock, it sure is exhausting at times with some "friends" and very easy with others. The "others" are the ones who are worth it and remain true, no matter what. Being the wife of a retired military man, I've moved a few times, made great friends only to have them or me move. I love the fact that I have remained great friends with many of them. Over the last few years though, I've come to realize how hard it can be to be friends with some that only seem to want to be "friends" when it's convenient for them. Why am I the friend that needs to call, or makes plans with you all the time? Why can't you be the one to do that? I feel like I am being needy or desperate with some friends when I do this, or like you really don't want to be friends. I shouldn't feel like that...ever...with friends. I guess I just want those friends to treat me as I do them after all...as a friend and maybe even do the calling and planning sometimes. Life, is busy...I know that and I have a busy schedule with full time classes and my family but I always make time for my friends. If you care about people in your life, you make time for them. It may seem petty that I am complaining about this and you're probably right but it's my blog and I can write whatever I want. Ha! I am blessed with a great family and some great friends, a great life as well. I know this but it doesn't take away the emotions I have about this...
Anyway, let's start with the classes. I am in the process of changing my major from Business Admin to Public Service. Why? Because (again, at my age), I want to be able to enjoy what I am learning and doing as a career. Not just have a degree because it's what's expected and presumed to be on your resume. Public Service is a much better fit for me. I love helping people and when I worked at the technical college, that's what I did and enjoyed every minute of helping others. Sad that I quit that job after almost 10 years because I was not moving forward no matter how hard I tried and management seemed to want me to step back even though I was doing great there. Going back to college was a major factor of that decision to quit and only every now and then I regret quitting but only because of my addiction for Hobby Lobby, which requires money!
The food blog is an adventure, a hobby, and hopefully I can make it popular - more than what it is, which is not so much. I am not giving up though. I am learning more every day about blogging, photography, and promoting blogs. It's not as easy as some make it seem. New recipes are fun to try and even if they turn out not great, it's a learning experience. Bless my family's hearts and stomachs for being guinea pigs! If you are so inclined (just a bit of begging here), please check the blog out and follow it as well as the Facebook page for it. I'd appreciate it tons!
Quitting my job put quite a few things into perspective for me along the lines of friends and coworkers. You quit a job and those that you thought were your friends (coworkers) are never to be heard from again, not all but some. I've always tried to be the best friend I could be to all those I considered friends because that's how I would like to be treated. This worked well for me for many years, or did it really? Maybe treating others how you want to be treated is just a crock, it sure is exhausting at times with some "friends" and very easy with others. The "others" are the ones who are worth it and remain true, no matter what. Being the wife of a retired military man, I've moved a few times, made great friends only to have them or me move. I love the fact that I have remained great friends with many of them. Over the last few years though, I've come to realize how hard it can be to be friends with some that only seem to want to be "friends" when it's convenient for them. Why am I the friend that needs to call, or makes plans with you all the time? Why can't you be the one to do that? I feel like I am being needy or desperate with some friends when I do this, or like you really don't want to be friends. I shouldn't feel like that...ever...with friends. I guess I just want those friends to treat me as I do them after all...as a friend and maybe even do the calling and planning sometimes. Life, is busy...I know that and I have a busy schedule with full time classes and my family but I always make time for my friends. If you care about people in your life, you make time for them. It may seem petty that I am complaining about this and you're probably right but it's my blog and I can write whatever I want. Ha! I am blessed with a great family and some great friends, a great life as well. I know this but it doesn't take away the emotions I have about this...
Wednesday, April 18, 2012
Cats really do have nine lives!
The next two weeks are finals...starting to get nervous about 3 of the 4. One I already did (the video speech.) I really am not worried about passing them, but about making the grade to keep my GPA at this point. If all goes well, I will have a 4.0.
Still worried about oldest daughter and her exam which is next week (Tues or Wed, she picks)
Worried a bit about youngest and her finals too...
Still worried about oldest daughter and her exam which is next week (Tues or Wed, she picks)
Worried a bit about youngest and her finals too...
I realize worrying doesn't do anything, it will be what it will be BUT I am worried.
On other news, after these two weeks, I have a break (a month I think) before summer classes start. I plan to do more home decor stuff. I hope to have the kitchen finally finished BEFORE the inlaws come on May 9.
One of youngest daughter’s friend's parents had chairs that matched ours for the dining room table (that is in my kitchen) so we bought 4 of them from for $60! They got a new set and the chairs were just sitting in the garage.
I need a few more prints for the eating area to hang and still have YET to find any REMOVABLE wall decor stickers for the the back splash. Apparently, I am still living in the 90s when those were popular. Had I known....
Belle, our wonderful old kitty has been through hell this week...all because of ME. It's a wonder she doesn't hate me. Cats are very forgiving though. Saturday evening I gave her the frontline treatment...she didn't look my way till Sunday when it was time for breakfast and then what do I do? I dropped the tupperware container of food on her head (spilling nearly half its contents) and she ran and hid in Val's room...which I might add she has NEVER stepped foot in. She didn't look my way or come out for hours. When she did, she snubbed me! Wait...it get better....Monday she was under the desk sleeping and I knew it (no where near the chair) as I was working on class assignments. An hour later, I got up to check laundry and as I moved the chair I hear this crying/screaming/shrieking from her. I freaked a lifted the chair fast and saw her run but I saw a chunk of what appeared to be her tail!! OMG I freaked and shrieked and cried and picked the dang thing up! Noticed it was NOT tail but just fur. OMG..I went to her and she wouldn't even let me touch her. I tried to bribe her with treats to come down from the window ledge...nothing. I moved the couch to get to her and by this time she was gone...ran upstairs...to her safe haven...the closet in Val's room. I was still freaking out but I went there and laid down on the floor by her. She let me pet her and I felt all over and she didn't cringe or try to bite me so I guess mainly she was scared and the fur coming off pain didn't last long...IDK but I was so upset. She stayed up there most of the day. She did come down to eat at night and I watched her, she seems fine. Yesterday...nothing major happened...thank God. I am a horrible mama....
Belle, our wonderful old kitty has been through hell this week...all because of ME. It's a wonder she doesn't hate me. Cats are very forgiving though. Saturday evening I gave her the frontline treatment...she didn't look my way till Sunday when it was time for breakfast and then what do I do? I dropped the tupperware container of food on her head (spilling nearly half its contents) and she ran and hid in Val's room...which I might add she has NEVER stepped foot in. She didn't look my way or come out for hours. When she did, she snubbed me! Wait...it get better....Monday she was under the desk sleeping and I knew it (no where near the chair) as I was working on class assignments. An hour later, I got up to check laundry and as I moved the chair I hear this crying/screaming/shrieking from her. I freaked a lifted the chair fast and saw her run but I saw a chunk of what appeared to be her tail!! OMG I freaked and shrieked and cried and picked the dang thing up! Noticed it was NOT tail but just fur. OMG..I went to her and she wouldn't even let me touch her. I tried to bribe her with treats to come down from the window ledge...nothing. I moved the couch to get to her and by this time she was gone...ran upstairs...to her safe haven...the closet in Val's room. I was still freaking out but I went there and laid down on the floor by her. She let me pet her and I felt all over and she didn't cringe or try to bite me so I guess mainly she was scared and the fur coming off pain didn't last long...IDK but I was so upset. She stayed up there most of the day. She did come down to eat at night and I watched her, she seems fine. Yesterday...nothing major happened...thank God. I am a horrible mama....
Wednesday, April 11, 2012
Will itching count against me?
just did my video speech...it's the best it is going to get...I mean I scratched my nose in it...BUT the rest is good...good eye contact, emotion in voice, etc...will the itching count against me? I cannot do it over...
Tuesday, April 10, 2012
Priceless...
The moment when your daughter doesn't pitch a fit over money when she agrees to chip in for something...priceless
Thursday, April 5, 2012
cabin fever
I think yesterday was the first time since I quit my job that I really had cabin fever. I just wanted to get out! Today, I had a zillion things to do and out I got. Almost had to curse at a grandma driving one of those car-carts in the grocery store. I think she forgot her damn cart was the size of TWO with that cart and she kept pushing my cart, thinking she had more room.
I got an email from someone I worked with and it made me realize there are some people there I do miss. Maybe that's why I had the cabin fever.
Pot roast came out awesome tonight and enough left for tomorrow even. I still haven't adjusted to cooking for two....one day. Sigh.
I got an email from someone I worked with and it made me realize there are some people there I do miss. Maybe that's why I had the cabin fever.
Pot roast came out awesome tonight and enough left for tomorrow even. I still haven't adjusted to cooking for two....one day. Sigh.
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